Disconsolateness

Hey. Hows it going? It has really been awhile since the last time I've updated huh? A lot had happened since then. Who would've thought that we would be living in a pandemic. Crazy huh? Well, as crazy as the world is right now, my life isnt any different either.  Things are getting out of hand for the past years and its getting even crazier when this pandemic strikes. Im currently going to therapy. Yeah. Its a lot. I've been diagnosed with a couple of problems and disorder and had to go through therapy and all that jazz. As usual, I had a lot of sudden outburst and random breakdowns at the most inconvenient times. I used to cope with it a bit by tweeting about my feelings and ranting it on and on on my private twitter but not anymore. I find it rather hard to even talk about whats going on in my life. I cried every single time I walked out of my psychiatrist and psychologist office. Yeah, that kinda sucks. I still dont know the roots of my problem tbh but maybe, just maybe,