Can’t believe im still so naive to put myself in this kind of situation again. Why does it always have to be this hard for me? What is this void? What is this void that I am so eagerly wanting to avoid? What is this longing that I am so desperately wants to be fill? What is this feeling? What am I feeling? What is this indescribable pain holding on to every inch of my soul? 

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